Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Another Anniversary

A year ago today I found out I was pregnant! It seems like a few months ago and seems like 10 years ago all at the same time. I will never, ever, ever forget that day...what I did, the feelings I had, it was un freakin believable..literally unbelievable.

I had been feeling crampy for a few days before my scheduled blood test and had fully convinced myself that this was yet ANOTHER failed attempt. I woke up at 7 am which was WAY too early for me and got to the Dr. at 8. I sat in the waiting room, filled with husbands and wives at their own stages of the game, and shook my legs continually....I could not sit still. And, of course there was a wait that day! I thought I was going to have a heart attack...my blood pressure must have been through the roof.

Finally I was called in, I sat down to give blood for the 100th time in this process and the nurse asked me if I already knew...if I had taken a test. Nope. I can't believe I had the will power to not do it but I waited for the blood test. Heck, after 6 years and several peed on sticks with 1 line I was in no rush to see another failed stick.

I went home to wait the grueling 2 hours it would take to get the results. I climbed into bed and watched a Little House on the Prairie marathon...I LOVE that show! My husband came home 5 minutes before we were supposed to get the call. He was standing next to the bed talking to me and my phone rang....it was the Dr....my stomach dropped, I was shaking, it was hard to breath....I answered.

I said Hello....nurse Jana said "Hi". I said "Hi".....pause..."you're pregnant" I hear. "WHAT?? SHUT UP?? Are you serious? **sobbing** Shut Up!!! Oh My God...I can't believe it", etc, etc. I was a mess. Then she tells me my progesterone level and informs me that it is high and could very well be twins...WHAT????

I hang up the phone...my husband and I stare at each other grinning ear to ear and then start calling and texting everyone. The phones were going crazy!! It was like a dream. I couldn't believe I finally got that moment! That chance to tell the news. My mom cried, friends and family screamed..it was awesome.

My husband had to go back to work so we ran to Panera for a sandwich where we sat in silence for long stretches just smiling and looking bewildered, then we would start planning and imagining. It was so wild to sit there and know that a baby or babies were inside of me. It didn't seem real.

After lunch I went to Kohl's to buy a baby outfit. I was so sick of buying baby gifts over the years for everybody else but me..poor me. I got to the baby section and stood there all confused. Am I really getting something for MY baby...what do I get...what size/color!!?? I picked out a sleeper with ducks...I will keep it forever.



6 comments:

  1. :) Happy Anniversary. I, too, remember every detail about getting the news we were pregnant both times. It is such a happy, giddy time. I have saved outfits that I bought special for each boy as well as what they came home in ... even the mini little premie diaper Aj wore when he was born. I wanted to remember who tiny he was -- esp. now compared to now, my "baby" will be 5 in 2 weeks and weighs 45 lubs.

    Enjoy your day today and all the memories from the last year. :)

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  2. what a beautiful story - love all of it.

    not being able to stop smiling is the best, isn't it?

    Also love your little duck babygrow and the cute boy inside it.

    we found out last year on Christmas Eve! WIll have to blog that this year :)

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  3. Happy Anniversary! I should post some of mine these days (although the girls' birthday is getting closer and closer, so that will be a good excuse). Love the duckie sleeper!

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  4. Ohhh... the duckies was a good pick! :)

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  5. I love that story! I remember reading your blog after you bought that outfit - hard to believe that you have 2 little ones to wear it now, huh?

    Your boys are precious and I'm so glad you're loving being their mom. Happu (belated) anniversary! (And happy Thanksgiving - your first as a mama!)

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