Monday, July 20, 2009
bleak
It's amazing how something I wanted so badly sucks in such a big way!!! Holy shit, I am just hanging on here. The boys are 5 weeks old and I feel hopeless!! Everyday runs into the next, sleep is so rare, my nerves are frazzled, I sob all the time...when am I going to enjoy these boys that I love so much?
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Oh Sweetie, I am so sorry you are going through a tough time right now. It will get better I promise, I can't tell you when but it will, Seth started sleeping through the night at about 8 or 9weeks. If people offer help with the boys, meals, cleaning, laundry, whatever, take it!! Hang in there Amy, you are doing a great job!
ReplyDeleteI am so, so, so sorry! I know, it really, really sucked. I felt the EXACT same way. Honestly. I was shocked at how bad it sucked.
ReplyDeleteEnjoying them was a gradual shift for me and it happened once they started sleeping more. Until then, I thought my marriage was going to fall apart and I would have sold them for $1 each to get a night's sleep. (OK maybe $5 each.)
But it was more than that. I just didn't feel like me. It was a HUGE adjustment that I was unprepared for. I wanted someone to keep me company. It wasn't really the babies that were hard on me, it was something else. I really think I had some PPD. I had company just about everyday (just someone to stop by and say hi for an hour or so), which really helped my mental state.
Email me if I can help. yatescook at hotmail dot com.
Just think - the first few weeks are over! You are making progress and in the process becoming a mother. You will definitely enjoy them in a few months. I PROMISE!
I'm so sorry. You will get through it, but if you need help, don't be afraid to ask for it.
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard...and I only had 1 child at a time. Do you have helpers? Husband, mother, sister, girlfriends?? Get them to help while you sleep! Maybe look into groups for moms of multiples to get some extra advice/support. It so does get better...soon they'll be 6 years old and you'll be wondering--how did they grow so fast?!!! It does get better!! You just do it!!!
ReplyDeleteMy 1st son was born 6 weeks early, he didn't come home with me he was in the nicu for 10 more days. I was a mess, sobbing on the couch inpain, husband at work and no one here but me. Pete only weighed a little over 3 pounds and I was scared for him. Also I went through adjusting from working 50 hour weeks to being a stay home mommy. I didn't start to feel myself again for a year. I was miserable, I hated myself, I hated my husband, our marriage suffered. This is the part that isn't in the baby books and alot of women won't talk about it. But it does get better before then. I'm here if you need to talk. email me at robertamybossomo@centurytel.net.
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. Not that validating you will make the situation better, but it does suck.
It does and will get better.
Not sure if you want advise or suggections but you can e-mail me if you do.
heidi dot bauer at gmail dot com
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I know it will get better. I have heard from several people that the first 6 weeks are the worst. (I think/hope I am prepared for that.) After 6 weeks it starts to get a little better each day. You start to get a little bit of a routine and your body starts to adust and they start to sleep more at night. Hang in there and know we are all here for you.
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